It has been 14 days of total denial and daily teasing. it sounds more frustrating when you know that is less than 10% of where i am heading.
My first week was harder, I admit. the pain is the same but somehow it becomes more acceptable to me.
I start to accept my "new" life. i still have a small part inside me that still thinking that there is a way out! there is a scape somehow. there is a small part of me doesn't want to see the truth.
Everyday I bring myself to a breath-taking edge then I stop. I put my hard throbbing cock back in my pants, I cup my blue aching balls and I breath in with frustration.
Everything around me is a possible stimulator. as a porn addict this is a real torture. I don't need to tell you about it anymore. I think if i want to stop watching porn is this the right time :)
I would like to mention that I have tried to be in chastity devices before. I tied both CB-6000 & steel Bird Cage. it was difficult, but nothing like this. The idea of being free to stroke but not allowed to have an orgasm, is crazy. in fact, in this case I must stroke everyday, and hit the point where my heart pumps too fast, then i just stop. This isa real torture psychologically and physically.
I start questioning the meaning of male orgasm, is it really important? do we, males, really have to cum?
I become weaker and more sensitive everyday.
Click here for my frist week
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