Despite the awful accident that happen 3 days ago, which gave me my first "painful" sperm leakage!, I am back in denial. and since I have been 80 days without any real orgasm, being back on the edge is a matter of seconds. My punishment obviously was that awful leakage, it hurt me, my feeling and my body. As a result of this i have been refrained from any kind of contact to my gentiles, either edging or CBT acts for a whole week.
It feels very weird and humiliating to not be able to touch your own cock at all! but it gives me time and think clearly about my case. I asked myself repeatedly If you were truly locked in chastity device would that have been possible? Probably not. I start thinking about my problem, it's because I got aroused and I had a full erection and the most important i had an access to this full erection. even if this access is restrained by edging only and there is no orgasm no matter what. But accidents happen all the time, I can't lay on my willpower alone. if I want to be in the safe zone of denial, wearing a chastity device is the way.
I have been in a chastity device before, I know exactly what it feels like, but only for a short time. my experience with it wasn't so good. It happened that my devices weren't so comfortable to be wore long time. I tried two devices:
The first was a Steel Cage :
it was awful, the skin gets pinched by the tube all the time.
the second was a Plastic CB-6000
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this one was good, no pinching at all, but the tube is extremely small, i couldn't fit my flaccid there comfortably.
Well, the next week will be a good opportunity to taste this "to able to get an erection" state. I will have a decision by then. but anyway I better start looking for a new device, just in case!
It feels very weird and humiliating to not be able to touch your own cock at all! but it gives me time and think clearly about my case. I asked myself repeatedly If you were truly locked in chastity device would that have been possible? Probably not. I start thinking about my problem, it's because I got aroused and I had a full erection and the most important i had an access to this full erection. even if this access is restrained by edging only and there is no orgasm no matter what. But accidents happen all the time, I can't lay on my willpower alone. if I want to be in the safe zone of denial, wearing a chastity device is the way.
I have been in a chastity device before, I know exactly what it feels like, but only for a short time. my experience with it wasn't so good. It happened that my devices weren't so comfortable to be wore long time. I tried two devices:
The first was a Steel Cage :
it was awful, the skin gets pinched by the tube all the time.
the second was a Plastic CB-6000
UE9s3wBer3BSBC)s67qg~~60_12.JPG)
this one was good, no pinching at all, but the tube is extremely small, i couldn't fit my flaccid there comfortably.
Well, the next week will be a good opportunity to taste this "to able to get an erection" state. I will have a decision by then. but anyway I better start looking for a new device, just in case!
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